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katulad ng nakasulat sa pamagat ng post na ito, nagulat ako upon receiving this forwarded email. this came from someone who used to be in my life, someone who i thought would be THE ONE. but i was wrong. she changed her mind and eventually left. for several months, i have tried asking why she wanted to go, but there were no answers. it was only a couple of weeks ago that i have told myself that, probably, when she wants to tell me her reasons, she would eventually speak, or she may never speak at all.

either way, i have accepted the fact that she will probably never come back in my life. i decided that it was time to leave the past behind and continue living my life without her in it. she was a person who let me know that i'm worth loving. but unfortunately, she was also the same person who let me know that i'm not worth it. a friend of mine once said: "hindi ko sasabihing kalimutan mo kasi imposible yun..." another had said: "ang tao, parang bumbilya, napupundi rin. stop it na, move on already." pareho silang tama, at nagpapasalamat ako sa mga payo nila sa akin.

i still thank God for introducing her to me, but reminders of her only bring back the pain she gave me when she left. i have said it once and i will say it again: loving her was the best thing that happened in my life. i will never ever deny that. but the key word here is 'was'. it is painful, but i have to do it, for my own good - i have to leave her memory in the past. i may be just a 'stupid ex-' of hers, for all i know. i have my flaws, i admit it, and all i want is to be a better person. too bad i didn't get a second chance. instead, i was screwed over. maybe i deserved it, who knows - but i certainly don't know - and probably never will find out. getting dumped was probably my bad karma. big deal. life goes on, and eventually, i have to live on in order to find the woman who's destined for me - the one who will be there for a lifetime.

i wish her the best, and i hope that she is happy where she is right now. i may not be in her life anymore, but it's probably what's best for both of us. "not meant to be" is just a euphemism. the bottomline is, we broke up because she didn't want us to be. the sooner i plant that fact in my thick skull, the easier this would be.

if you are reading this, i just want you to leave me be. you asked me to let you go, and i did what you wanted. please, just leave me alone. you wanted out, so please just stay out of my life. you wanted it this way, so let's keep it this way. i am severing whatever ties i still have with you. you don't need me in your life anymore. napatawa na kita at napag-pasensiyahan ko na ang mga moods mo. i have already served my purpose.

for my part, i am tired of reading/hearing sugar-coated bullshit and all that 'pampalubag-loob'. it would be better to bring me down with the truth rather than uplift me with lies. i am sick and tired of being temporary. i believe that all of this pain will be gone someday, and i am trying to go towards that direction.

i know who my true friends are, and i don't need to forward messages like these to find out who they are. they may be few, but i appreciate each and every one of them. besides, hindi ako nakikipag-paramihan ng kaibigan sa kahit na kanino. if people like me, salamat sa kanila. if they don't like me, then they can BITE ME!

but thanks for forwarding this message anyway.

>PEOPLE COME INTO YOUR LIFE FOR A REASON

>I am sending this to you to see how many actually read their e-mail. Your response will be interesting. Pay attention to what you read. After you have finished reading it, you will know the reason it was sent to you. Here goes:

>People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person.

>When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must rea lize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

>Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.

>LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

>Thank you for being a part of my life, whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.

>Send this to every friend that you have on-line, including the person who sent it to you.

>0 Replies - you may need to work on your "people skills"

>2 Replies - you are nice but probably need to be more outgoing

>4 Replies - you have picked your friends well

>6 Replies - you are downright popular

>8 Replies or More - you are totally awesome (and that's probably why you're on MY list)

>I wonder what mine will be.